t h e e v e

from the eve of my 26th birthday-january 21, 2014

i sit here as the minutes tick by. eventually, time will indicate that another year has gone by.

tonight i have eaten nineteen reese's peanut butter cups, gave my sick husband a massage, and i am now watching junior (yes-the one where arnold schwarzenegger gets prego). i changed it after sitting down to a reality show that made it clear i wasn't beautiful enough, nor do i have enough money. sure, it is me comparing and my comparison rests on a fallacy, a downright lie perhaps. all beautiful, rich people are happy, successful, and never lonely. but this idealization does violence on my reality, so i choose not to watch that happen.

i am allowed to do this.

i'm getting older. what brought on my aging anxiety?

i find myself in a awkward state.
i don't identify myself with those younger. i am much more mature.
and i don't identify with those older as i will never age.

i am in a waiting stage. what happens next?

i have started to take notice that being young is rarely as freeing, and old-near as miserable, as the stereotypes would have me believe. but what is twenty six?

sitting here, i reflect on the last year, the twenty fifth year. it's happened. as i think about the last year, i wish i would have gone to bed earlier, made my husband more dinners, and put more focus into relationships.

goodbye 25th year.

by the way: who is reese? his peanut butter cups are my favorite.

2 5 t h y e a r u p d a t e

for my birthday last january, i created a goal list
i have 25 things to do before i turn 26.
here is a little update...

1. hike mt timpanogos (planned for september)
2. write an ebook
3. maintain an exercise regimen so i can run a full marathon in may, do 100 pushups, and 30 nonstop pull-ups
4. shoot an elk and eat it. then start eating a lot less meat.
5. sky dive (next week, ahhhhhh)
6. buy a house (working to put in an offer, double ahhhhhhh)
7. get to under 100 pounds
8. lead a multi pitch sport climb and climb a v7 boulder
9. go on a backpacking trip
10. learn to cook 3 family meals from casey’s mother and 3 from mine
11. make at least 20k outside of my regular job and/or enough money to allow casey to quit and pick a job he likes.
12. 360 picture challenge on instagram: follow me @kendrafromm
13. save a few thousand dollars
14. write another song on the guitar
15. learn at least 5 new difficult piano songs
16. camp on the beach in california
17. travel to one new country
18. do a hundred mile bike ride
19. keep my car clean (ha ha)
20. visit joes, moes, moab, or the city of rocks at least once a month from april to october
21. be able to work from home
22. teach june how to roll over, play dead, and stick em’ up.
23. get pregnant (working on it ;))
24. learn photoshop and start taking photography clients
25. make 5 new friends

hopefully the second half of the 25th year is a little more productive.